On Friday, we received the news we had been waiting for. Was Sweet T available for us to adopt? Our agency was committed to finding out what happened. Our caseworker had been praying along with us that we have a definite no or a definite yes. On Friday afternoon we found out that it was a definite no. She had been matched with another family.
Our hearts our sad. We can hardly talk about it. Scratch that, we can't talk about it. If you saw us, you wouldn't know that we had received hard news. But it's hard. Very hard. For 9 months, we have prayed for Tinsley, looked at the same pictures, and watched her sweet videos. We planned her side of the room with her excited older sister and picked out clothes for her. We dreamed about our future with her. For those who have had a baby, we were on that pregnancy journey. And now we do not have anything to show for it.
We've done this before. We know the feelings and grief that come with it. We also know that God has a plan. We would appreciate your prayers but unless you have experienced this, please refrain from giving us advice. A hug is sufficient. If you believe we are crazy to grieve a child we have never met, please keep that to yourself. We do not care to hear it. I tell you this because I wish I would have had the courage to say it with Hannah.
Prayers are appreciated as we grieve and make decisions. An adoption will happen. God has made that clear. But we must grieve Tinsley properly. Please do not ask us what our plans are. We will share those as God reveals them. The journey has not ended but a part has been closed. And sometimes a closed doors brings tears. Thank you for your understanding.
"The Lord gave and The Lord has taken away;
may the name of The Lord be praised. "
Follow our journey as we navigate these trails with Peter who was adopted in January of 2013 and as we begin the process to bring Elise home.
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