Ponderings

As I sat in bed this morning, I read over this blog. I was grieved to realize that I have lost my zeal for Christ. Oh sure, I am still a Jesus lovin girl but something has been missing. And anger and bitterness took His place. When did I stop giving praise to Jesus for all He's done? When did I start getting discouraged over the little things and not looking at everything Christ has done? I became caught up in things I did not need to be caught up in. I became my own worst enemy. It's been apparent in my speech, actions, and daily life. So today I choose joy. Here are some joyous moments that must be shared!

-Our agency is willing to fight for us! They are doing all they can to see Sweet T become ours. They also know that it may not happen so they pray for us daily. How many can say their agencies do that?

-Peter's surgery was so great for bonding. He saw that we were going to be there for him. I am sure that there was a little part of him that wondered if we would be there when he woke up. What a joy to be there, to hold him, to reassure him that we will always love him.

-It's amazing to see how much Peter is relying on God more and more. This sweet boy love Jesus so much. He wants to go to Israel to walk where Jesus walked. He wants to start a Bible study with his daddy. What a blessing!!

-Seeing the hand of God throughout this last year is simply mind blowing. We do not deserve all the goodness that He has bestowed upon us!

Joy does not always come naturally. Just like love, finding joy is a verb. You must look for it. You must actively pursue it. I am grieved that I lost joyous moments due to selfishness. But we serve a God of grace and redemption. How sweet is the name of Jesus!!